Ramblings I had the other day …
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There are times of the day
That your memory rapes my mind
I can’t do anything but think
Of your smile, your kind words
I can’t help but to envision
Your hand in mine, clasped
Your well being is
The question of the moment

Was I really as bad of a singer
As you made me out to be
Or was that just another of
Your little jokes on me
You were such a big part
Of my life for so very long
We grew up together
In more ways than one

We were such happy kids
Even though we were
Starcrossed lovers
We sacrificed family,
Knowledge and purity
At the feet of the altar
Of passion and hopeless romanticism
We gave all we had
To unite our souls for a moment
We snuck off to be together
For seconds at a time

We married in a flurry
And fell more in love
Though I think we both doubted
That we could outrun fate forever
We sure tried, didn’t we?

And then you stopped
Trying to outrun it all
I dragged you along with me
For a while before I stopped
Burdened by your dead weight
And my aching, tired muscles
I was running a three legged race
With only one foot

It became emotionally draining
For me to look at you
To see your lips forming
The syllables of your lies
You’d rather yell a lie than
To mumble the truth
If you even knew the difference
Between the two at that point

We led the race with inevitablity
For a while, or so it seemed
Then we stumbled
And you took up residence there
At that point that we fell
While I tried to pull you along

One line might make a ring
But one person can’t make a relationship
I’ve learned that lesson
The hard way, like all the rest
Life is the toughest teacher of all
And I passed this class
With a face wet from tears
And a broken heart
And started the lesson of lonliness
With one big stride

Yeah, I realize that I wasn’t perfect
All of the time
But I did try to make you happy
And never strayed to another’s bed
I did my best to keep
The promises I made to you
The day we wed