Author: Jennifer Hogan

Ramblings I had the other day …
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There are times of the day
That your memory rapes my mind
I can’t do anything but think
Of your smile, your kind words
I can’t help but to envision
Your hand in mine, clasped
Your well being is
The question of the moment

Was I really as bad of a singer
As you made me out to be
Or was that just another of
Your little jokes on me
You were such a big part
Of my life for so very long
We grew up together
In more ways than one

We were such happy kids
Even though we were
Starcrossed lovers
We sacrificed family,
Knowledge and purity
At the feet of the altar
Of passion and hopeless romanticism
We gave all we had
To unite our souls for a moment
We snuck off to be together
For seconds at a time

We married in a flurry
And fell more in love
Though I think we both doubted
That we could outrun fate forever
We sure tried, didn’t we?

And then you stopped
Trying to outrun it all
I dragged you along with me
For a while before I stopped
Burdened by your dead weight
And my aching, tired muscles
I was running a three legged race
With only one foot

It became emotionally draining
For me to look at you
To see your lips forming
The syllables of your lies
You’d rather yell a lie than
To mumble the truth
If you even knew the difference
Between the two at that point

We led the race with inevitablity
For a while, or so it seemed
Then we stumbled
And you took up residence there
At that point that we fell
While I tried to pull you along

One line might make a ring
But one person can’t make a relationship
I’ve learned that lesson
The hard way, like all the rest
Life is the toughest teacher of all
And I passed this class
With a face wet from tears
And a broken heart
And started the lesson of lonliness
With one big stride

Yeah, I realize that I wasn’t perfect
All of the time
But I did try to make you happy
And never strayed to another’s bed
I did my best to keep
The promises I made to you
The day we wed

Proof that a hair cut and color can greatly improve your outlook on life …

 

A Bit About Me

Pets: two 5 year old rottweilers, Harry & Maxie; a 9 year old female German shepard & chow mix, Moe, a 3 y.o. male yellow tabby & white cat, Leo

Height: 6’2″ Eye color: Hazel Hair color: Natural – a mousy brown
Currently – a light brown w/blonde highlights
Normally – reddish brown

Favorite ice cream: Ben & Jerry’s Chunky Monkey

To get an idea of what I look like picture this … the head of Kate Dillon, the boobs of Anna Nicole Smith, the body of Kathy Nijimy, wearing at any given point in time faded jeans and a tee-shirt

Favorite Disney movie: The Little Mermaid

Fast Food Restaurant: Sonic

Best quality in a person … good sense of humor, ability to laugh at themselves

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?In some mental institution … either directing art therapy or being a patient

Which single store would you choose to max out your credit card? Pier One, Lane Bryant, the Clinique counter … choices, choices …

What do you do most often when you are bored?online crap, repaint picture frames and lamps, changing all of the pictures in my numerous frames

I’m going to get a glass of water after this … *shudders*

Did you know … Coca-Cola

In many states (in the USA) the highway patrol carries two gallons of Coke in the truck to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.

You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of coke and it will be gone in two days.

To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the toilet bowl and……Let the “real thing” sit for one hour, then flush clean.

The citric acid in Coke removes stains from vitreous china.

To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers: Rub the bumper with a crumpled-up piece of Reynolds Wrap aluminum foil dipped in Coca-Cola.

To clean corrosion from car battery terminals:  Pour a can of Coca-Cola over the terminals to bubble away the corrosion.

To loosen a rusted bolt: Applying a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola to the rusted bolt for several minutes.

To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of coke into a load of greasy clothes, add detergent, And run through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola will help loosen grease stains. (I’m just guessing, but, doesn’t Coke also stain clothes?)

Coke will also clean road haze from your windshield.

The active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid.  Its pH is 2.8. It will dissolve a nail in about 4 days.

To carry Coca-Cola syrup (the concentrate) the commercial truck must use the Hazardous material place cards reserved for Highly corrosive materials.

The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean the engines of their trucks for about 20 years!

Quick Life Update:

Spending more time w/sweetie

Doing well in school

I finally got a B+ out of that impossible Comp. teacher

Remembered my mom’s birthday in time to mail a card and have it get there BEFORE the big day

Sent cards or handmade postcards to all of old buddies and favorite co-workers back in G’boro


I miss Xanga, but I am taking care of business.  I will return on a more frequent basis soon … {v} Love and kisses to all … {v}

Cop-Out of the Day

… an email joke … enjoy!

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By the time a Marine pulled into a little town, every hotel room was taken. “You’ve got to have a room somewhere,” he pleaded. “Or just a bed, I don’t care where.”


“Well, I do have a double room with one occupant, a Navy guy,” admitted the manager, “and he might be glad to split the cost. But to tell you the truth, he snores so loudly that people in adjoining rooms have complained in the past. I’m not sure it’d be worth it to you.”


“No problem,” the tired Marine assured him. “I’ll take it.”


The next morning the Marine came down to breakfast bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. “How’d you sleep?” asked the manager.


“Never better.”


The manager was impressed. “No problem with the other guy snoring, then?”


“Nope, I shut him up in no time,” said the Marine.


“How’d you manage that?” asked the manager.


“He was already in bed, snoring away, when I came in the room,” the Marine explained. “I went over, gave him a kiss on the cheek, said, ‘Goodnight, beautiful,’ and he sat up all night watching me.”


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(That’s for you, my squid sweetie … {v} Love ya!)

Slowing Down

I used to be a person consumed with being productive at all times. I kept books in the bathroom, multitasked at work, listened to books on tape while driving, read my mail while cooking, even talked on the phone while in the grocery store. I never stopped. I was always filling my time with business.

One day, exhausted, I lay on the floor. The cool surface below my face calmed me. For the first time I really, truly stopped. I was being seemingly unproductive, but I was reaching a goal … I was recharging. The cat came over and lay on my back. We napped … in the middle of the day … for no good reason. It was delicious and frivolous and completely necessary.

I’ve taken a few more cues from the cat since then. Find a sunny spot near the window, stretch out, nap and feel no remorse afterwards.

Movie Quote of the Day

It’s a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself.

– Kevin Spacey’s character, Lester Burnham
in “American Beauty”

What my birth month says about me:

Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Logical
Needs close friends
Searches for the greatest romance
Loyal
Social
Easily jealous

List Key:
True  Somewhat True

I can still smell the beach
In my hair
On my shirt
It was only two hours ago that
We left it
We drove home
You make the simplest things in life
Mean so much
To me, dear.

– me, 03.09.01