The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
I’m going to post this due the incredible amount of email I got last night & this morning and then I am through with the whole thing. I didn’t mention it on here other than a link in one post, but for the last week I was a participant in the savvyweaklink game. Most of the people that read this blog knew that. Some of them even posted on their own site about my participation to get people to read it and cast their votes for who they thought should win.
As for the criticism that I got, mostly from the game’s moderator I might add, I have been rather non-self-disclosing while in this game because I would much rather have my writing torn apart by these people than my real life. I still feel like that was the best thing for me to do, though. I didn’t start any new things on the site to shock people or stoop to “ratings week” type stunts. The art and quotes stuff had been appearing sparatically since March, the “Print Shop” stuff took the place of the “Small Town Life” string I’d been working on, and the annoying things had been up before this all, too. The only thing that really changed was that I tried to do less poetry and throw in one thing from each category daily.
I don’t care how callused you are, having people effectively screaming that they hate you or your work wears a person down, thus the reason that I don’t want to debate this for another week. I have stayed up around the clock, sleeping basically 20 hours in the last week, trying to crank something out for this contest. For all of the flack that I got about not being original and not posting anything of substance, I sure did put a lot of time and effort into it.
Yesterday’s voting post at SWL turning into a car wreck of sorts. There were fake accounts created, double voting, name-calling, it was pretty gruesome. I had noticed that throughout the game, however there were accounts that voted in the game that had never made an original public post. Others voted for or against whoever voted for or against them the previous day.
I was watching yesterday as my lead of 10 to 4 slipped to 8, then to 12 and on. Like I said, it was nasty at the end and I sent this email before logging off for 12 hours:
Ross,
I do see integrity in you, as I told Erika yesterday. I’m glad if I go down in flames (I never knew how literally that would happen!) it’s to a nice guy.
As for the criticism, I have been pretty cloaked while in this because I didn’t want to have my LIFE torn apart by these people. As a result I get a “bubble gum” wrapper and people bitch about that. Oh well, it seems that my intention backfired anyway, because I’m getting raked over the coals for everyone else’s comments about me now.
I can’t keep reading all of this crap. It’s getting to damned ruthless. I wanted to get some constructive criticism on my writing and see what people REALLY thought about my ideas, quips, etc. I’d say I got both the good and bad sides of those opinions and that’s enough for me. I’m logging off now and I’ll check back in later. I don’t want to watch this turn in the direction it’s going of everyone bashing each other and using the voting place as a flame chat room.
I am, again, so sorry things got so fucking horrible on this, but I am proud to have lost to you, Ross. I’ll keep reading your blog and I wish you and Dee all of the best when the big move takes place.
Sincerely,
Jennifer
Okay, with all of that said, a lot good did come of this. I feel better about my work, as loose of a use of the term as some people believe that to be, and I did come into contact with people due to the game that I might not have otherwise. So I will follow with a few words of thanks to some of those people.
Thanks to one of my oldest Xanga friends, leadcrow. She was very supportive throughout the contest despite being friends with Argyle, too. She kept reminding me not to get all upset and kept me laughing. She also has a great blog that I have been reading since January. She is very upfront and honest, which both gets respect from me and sends some running into the night. You rock! 😀
Thanks to Nyree, who showed support here, on the SWL site with daily votes and on her own site. I met her through the last game and she stayed with me through this. She is starting her own contest soon and I think that she will be able to better run it after seeing all of bs in this round. Good luck, Nyree! Give it to ’em “Nyree Style”! 😉
Thanks to another ballsy chick, azure_mariposa. Lots of support and much-needed laughs from this direction as well. Mwah! {v} Azure is as sweet as they come and I luvs her to pieces!
Thanks to Brandi, whom I have grown to respect for her stance on life as much as her writing and support. This gal is a true example of making lemonade from the lemons dealt in life and I am glad to have met her through this massacre.
Other supporters of note are twirl_dawg, itsnomyth (another current contestant) and jermschmitt (who was also friends with Argyle), who were wonderful throughout and me feel that I was, in fact, reaching someone out there. CelticBookWurm and scottishfyre, who though being contestants themselves, had lots of warm words for me. (They both got robbed, by the way.) These are two more blogs worth your time and reading. MyxlDove has been another sweetie and is competing in the current round. JackRabbitDaddy is a helluva funny guy and a big sweetie, too
Okay, I will thank everyone on his or her own turf after classes this morning, but I have to go and thank my biggest supporter ever for his role in this game. He has listened to me yelling “WTF?” and put up with me crawling into bed at 7AM (or not at all) for the last week. He wanted me to join soooo badly, but I think he is equally relieved that this is over.
And in accordance to prophecy, this post will have the eProps disabled, unfortunately I can’t leave comments on without them. So PLEASE, this post was not made to be a eProp whoring kind of thing. Feel free to say what you like, but don’t ‘prop it. Go give those to these sweeties who have helped me keep my head on straight.
And last, but not, least, congrats to the winner, Argyle. He was incredibly nice to me through this whole schpleal. I wish him the best, and hope that his teddy bear fetish is over. 😉
Thanks to all of my readers. Regardless of whether you wanted to vote or not (and I see more now than ever why you wouldn’t want to!) you do read my stuff and I’m glad that you enjoy it and keep coming back.
{v} to all, Jennifer (aka Swirly)